Hi Ivette, you’ve had your fair share of really shitty circumstances that unfair doesn’t even begin to describe 💔. Wishing you peace and strength as you stumble down the widowhood path… again.

Now those children are grown (I even have four grandsons) but I am a widow again. I managed to deal with that awful grief years ago and married again to a wonderful man. We were together for nearly 20 years until he died suddenly of heart disease three months ago.

I truly wonder how long I will feel this numbness that occasionally gives way to tears and unbearable loneliness. “Unfair” just doesn’t seem the right word for what I’m going through, but this website has helped me realize I am not alone. Grief hits hard and sometimes more than once.

Hi Helene, it’s hard to see even a sliver of light at the end of this very dark and painful tunnel. But I assure you, it’s there. Take one day at a time and give yourself lots of extra grace along the way ❤.

Kim

It has been 6 weeks since my love past. He was so fit healthy and young. I am struggling, no sleep no purpose and so lonely. Thank you for your emails.

Helene

Hi Kim, I’m sending you truckloads of peace and strength as you follow this new, crooked, and sometimes excruciating road 💛.

Hi LoAnn, I understand your pain. It’s difficult to get thrust into the world of taking care of ALL the things. The mountain seems insurmountable at the base looking up. But climbing it only requires one step at a time. When life seems overwhelming ask yourself “what small step, what one thing can I do today?” Those small steps eventually lead you to the summit and when you look back you realize you really can do hard things. Just keep climbing ❤.

I have left a previous comment, but now a few more months have gone by and I find myself more angry. I was no way ready for him to leave because he always rallied and recovered. He had chronic heart disease but had never let it slow him down. We had young children when he developed it and I believe that is what kept him going. He was told he wouldn’t see our youngest graduate…but he did and was within days of seeing her married. He rallied so often I made myself believe he would never die. Unfortunately I attended her wedding without him by my side. They staged a mock wedding earlier so he could give her away with just our family in attendance. He insisted on standing with help, when he gave her away. Most bittersweet moment of my life. I don’t know if he was aware that the cerimony was for his sake or not but I truly believe he thought it was the real thing and he was so proud to give his
baby to a wonderful man.
I am angry more because I am having to deal with more admire that he always took care of. My car is older and starting to give me problems. Snow is coming and the deck needs winterized. My daughter’s drains ate plugged and he would have helped her unplug it or at least got on her boyfriends vase till he got it fixed
So many little things that he did and no one to take his place. The hurt, the anger. All acknowledged but still growing. I see it in myself manifesting in sleeping the day away, letting my house go into shambles. Can’t afford a mechanic so car is close to a breakdown, and so am I.

Hi Poppy, acceptance is one of the most difficult aspects of grief. Still we all learn how to move forward somehow, some way. I’m glad to hear you are making progress ❤.